Monday, October 10, 2011

Thanksgiving 2011

For quite a while now, I've felt dissatisfied with my life, that I'm just existing rather than actually living. Being lost in middle age is quite common, apparently. In fact, as I look around me at my friends who graduated the same time as I did, I see them all grinding away at their jobs, taking care of their families and just...well, existing. Just as I was merely existing.

Well, that was a few months back. Somehow or another, I must have decided to move away from that boring, mundane life because I have no recollection of saying to myself, "Enough is enough, let's start living!"

Today, I'm looking at what I'm doing and I'm...content. I'm doing quite a lot now:
  • I've put myself out there with my bagpipe practice; in fact, I'm hoping to audition for a pipe band soon (where soon is sometime in a year or so).
  • I'm also learning the ocarina and will be performing in-game.
  • Oh, did I mention that I've joined a Live Action Role Play group? Yep, going to be performing in-game with my ocarina - should be glorious fun!
  • At work, I've received authorization to look for internal transfer positions and I'm enrolled in management training.
  • Professionally, I'm also working with a major organization in the States to open up an affiliate chapter for the branch of management I'm going to be involved in.
For the first time in my life, I can feel music flowing through me. I picked up an ocarina and within a day, I was able to play a tune of mid-level complexity. Finally, I can breathe beauty into this world once more!

I have a busy life. A crazy, stressful busy life but one where I'm contributing and where my contributions are valued for the most part. So for this Thanksgiving, I'm thankful for my dear family and being able to be a part of their lives but I'm also thankful for the fact that my life is full. No, I won't cure cancer or make some amazing discovery. My name isn't going to be in the history books. But I would hope that it will be in the hearts of the people I love and care for.

Tuesday, August 30, 2011

Full immersion

*** Note to my dear sis and possibly Susan - you may want to skip reading this post if you think you may want to join in sometime ***

Live action role-playing (LARP) folk don't get a lot of respect from the gaming community, mostly because of videos like these show things out of context. Even though I'm a geekette and proud of it, I've always found LARPers to be...well, kind of out there.

This past weekend, a dear friend from out of town traveled halfway across the country to attend a LARP event with the local group. She invited me to come along and although warning bells were going off, I decided to be a good sport and agreed to come.

The event started off with me getting very lost trying to find the unmarked campground through some very vague instructions. It wasn't a good sign, that.

When I got there, I was shown to the cabin I was going to be staying in. My heart sank. Now, you have to understand, I'm a city girl. That means that if I'm too far away from wi-fi access or can't find a Starbucks nearby, I'd be lost. This...was a cabin. A co-ed cabin. With bunk beds. Yeah...not impressed but I was warned I'd be roughing it this weekend, so I plonked my stuff on a bunk and got dressed in garb.

Oh yes, you have to dress in appropriate costume, which in this case was something roughly medieval European-ish. There was a nice chap in a Roman centurion uniform but aside from him, most other folk were pretty much what you'd find on the set of Lord of the Rings. Pretty elaborate costumes too, so these folk take it seriously.

The game officially started and as a new player, we had to roleplay coming into town. A town under constant attack by the local denizens of the dark. Y'know what? I've walked down dark trails a million times before in computer RPGs and if I were beset by monsters, I'd just kill them and move on. This...this was different. I was on a dark path strewn with rocks, shrubs, fallen tree trunks with no real sources of illumination other than a dim lantern. There were noises all around us where every rustle, every movement of the leaves may herald a sudden attack by the enemy. And attack us they did. Over and over again. We lost several people (i.e. their characters were killed during the attacks, not that they were truly lost in the real sense) culminating in a run back to town when it was clear we couldn't win. Coming into town was interesting as well, because we nearly got skewered by the town guards who thought we were the enemy. Tired, weary and half-frightened out of our wits, we made it back to town. Only to be attacked over and over again - the town wasn't safe at all.

So began a glorious weekend of roleplaying. I wasn't playing a fighting character so RP is pretty much all I can do. During the course of the weekend, I nearly got killed once (in-game, not for real) and saved dozens of lives. After the first night, it became a full-immersion event, something I never thought was possible. Fog rolled in during one of the nights too, adding a very real sense of creepiness to the environment. Words simply cannot describe how one feels when you're all alone in the forest, separated from your group, in pitch darkness only to hear the moan of a zombie right behind you. Dear gods, I was frightened out of my wits that weekend, so much so that I was dreading the fall of night because that was when they came.

Would I go back? Absolutely. Do I feel silly LARPing? Only for the first couple of hours. It's so well run that when I say full-immersion, I *mean* full immersion. The folks were amazing as well, both in-game and out-of-game. Even though it's make-believe, after surviving a massive in-game onslaught, you can't help but like the person who saved your in-game life, regardless of whether that's who she is in real life or not.

The one thing I have to be careful of is to keep my sense of balance and moderation - the full-immersion factor can confuse things a bit.

Tuesday, August 16, 2011

Mobile blogging

This is a short test blog entry to see if my mobile blogging app has been properly set up.

*makes odd waving gesture at you*

This is not the entry you are looking for. Move along. :)